Need Directions

It has been a long time since I put my thoughts down. I am still in the corporate life which I’m still not happy with. I’m trying to find something to hang on too and I can’t seem to find it in my corporate life or is that just an excuse I’m telling myself so I won’t feel bad if I call it quits. Then again I can’t quit, some how I feel the pressure of my parents on me and if I quit I know my dad would be disappointed in me.

I feel my parents just don’t get me or rather just don’t get us. Maybe it’s because they have worked all their life and they complained too but they never gave up, they did everything they could to provide us with our basic needs. I want to repay them for everything they have done, but I simply cannot carry on living this life. It has no meaning, no life itself. Day in day out we spend half our lives at the office with strangers. People we cannot trust because you never know when they’ll turn around and stab you in the back. We just survive day in day out hoping for a promotion or pay raise.

I wanted to be a CEO of a MNC someday or at least that was my career aspiration before I started work. I release that being a CEO takes an even bigger toll on life and that’s when I started having second thoughts of corporate life. Now there are just so many things I want to do from opening my own business to being a lecturer and even a fitness instructor…. Just imagine that!!!. I just seem to be confused lately and I need more time figure this out. It’s depressing and frustrating trying to figure out life. But if we don’t figure this out now, we might just get stuck in this cycle.

Who knows what path I might end up taking……